Day 3 of the REMOVE detox and more tears and more questions.

Saturday April 30th 2-4 Follow your bliss Workin it Out event with Lauren Zander. A few spots left! You really, really don't want to miss this! Register at satilife.com

Today is day 3 of my 14 day REMOVE detox. I am hoping I will inspire you to join the Sati Life Community detox beginning with a workout and a kickoff talk by Dr. Frank Lipman. If you want to participate register at Satilife.com then order you REMOVE detox at elevenelevenwellness.com.

Today I woke up feeling a hungry but after I had my first shake of the day I felt good. I started with a hot cup of water with lemon, then I had my shake.  I still had a bit of a headache and I felt kind of foggy but nothing too bad. I keep reminding myself that if I am having a headache I must be doing the right thing. If I didn't have anything to detox out of my system I wouldn't feel this way. I am doing this to detox so this is part of the process.  Dr. Lipman is that true?

I had to teach a dance class this morning so I got to the gym an hour early so I could get a sweat going before class. I rode the bike for 45 minutes and did a breathing meditation that helped a lot. During class  my body felt a little tired so I just took it easy. After class I took a 20 minute steam and meditated again to visualize my inner body being revitalized. I had an 11:30am bodywork appointment to get to and I was running late so I didn't drink my second shake. I am supposed to have an early morning and a midmorning shake then lunch. I was late.

My 11:30am appointment was with Michael Moschel, the bodyworker I have been seeing who has been an amazing gift. After working with him my body feels 10 years younger and my achy knees are 80% better. I am actually enjoying dancing again. This is huge! Another reason I love working with him is that he facilitates the removal of toxins from the tissues and old stored emotions. This particular session was deeper than usual.  I cried in the session and I could feel changes happening from a physical, emotional and spiritual level. It reminded me how our years of fear, pain and sadness are still effecting us years later and it's time to let it all go, detox and remove.

None of this process is comfortable but it all feels deeply necessary. I keep thinking about how many of us learn to live with pain, teach ourselves to be numb so that we won't feel the emotional and physical pain and in doing so we cut ourselves off to pleasure as well. Like I said, none of this is a comfortable or an easy process but what keeps me motivated is I know it is leading me to being able to experience more joy than before and this is my true goal in life. I want to know more health, happiness and peace of mind than I have ever before so I can achieve what I am here to achieve.

Today I could feel myself resisting the process. I could hear myself complaining, blaming, judging, criticizing others, the situation and myself.  Since I had just finished a meditation practice I felt as if I could watch myself think. At one point in class, I stood off to the side and laughed at the monster, bratty, complaining, criticizing thoughts I was having. It didn't hook me. I didn't have to try and change them, I didn't believe them. I felt like they were simply all the toxins being exorcised from my insides. This was much easier to do today then it was the first day. I think partly because the first day I was not expecting to feel so grumpy but today I was willing to be uncomfortable and even expected it.  I was ready for those little monsters to pop up and try to convince me to give up.

My friend is also doing the REMOVE detox with me and having a difficult time. We emailed Dr. Lipman and asked a few questions and a few simply words of encouragement from him went a long way. He simply gave us both a few suggestions and ended with "hang in there" and it made me feel like this is normal, it is part of the process, don't freak out and just stay in the game.

Tonight I have a party to go to and I will not be drinking or eating. I am having my meal at home before I go so that I don't even have to worry about what kind of food they will have.

I am wondering Dr. Lipman
1. Can you estimate how long the headaches last?
2. How important is it to have the two shakes before lunch? Today I had a shake, meal, shake, shake, meal.
3. Can I expect that if I follow this program I will lose weight?

If you are considering starting the Sati Community REMOVE cleanse I suggest you start preparing your body now but cutting down or eliminating coffee, alcohol and sugar. This way you will ease into it.

Exercise your power to choose, right thinking, right eating and right exercising. If not now, when?
Love,
Patricia

Feeling crabby and just dealing with it. 4/28/11

This Saturday, April 30th 2-4 at Equinox 19th street, you are invited to "Workin it Out" with Patricia Moreno and Lauren Zander. 1 hour workout 1 hour inspiration. The topic is "follow your bliss".  Lauren has been coaching me for about 9 years and much of what I teach is infused with her methodology. Please join us for a powerful session. Members and non-members welcome. Satilife.com


Yesterday I started a 14 day cleanse. It is a cleanse developed by Dr. Frank Lipman who I heard speak at Urban Zen,  hosted by Donna Karen. Every time I hear about how many people are suffering from illness and die from diseases that can be healed and completely avoided with right thinking, right eating and right exercise, I get excited about what I am doing and I ask myself what more can I do? What am I not doing?
I decided after hearing him speak that I wanted to inspire the Sati community to do a cleanse and the Dr. Lipman was who I wanted to work with. I sent him an email, he responded the same day, we picked a date for him to come and speak at the next "Workin it out" event on May 14th.  Yes! Very exciting. So in preparation I am doing the cleanse myself. The next 14 days I will be updating you on how it is going. My goal is to get at least 200 people on the cleanse. Just in case you are wondering, I am not making any money on it, I am doing it because I know so many people can benefit from it.  The benefit is more than the  health benefits of weight loss, more energy, reduced cravings...it is also about self-discipline. I know many people shy away from that but it is through self-discipline that we can get ourselves to face our fears, be with discomfort so that we can get to a healthier and happier way of life.  Millions of people know what to do but can't get themselves to take action and willingly be uncomfortable.

Today Day 2
What is my personal reason WHY? I was on so many fertility drugs I want to clean out my system. I want to have the energy to do all the things that are important to me, play with my daughter, dance, workout, teach, travel and live instead of thinking I am getting older and older and the aches and pains I feel are part of life.  I am calling that BS! Yes I am getting older and Yes my body knows how to heal itself and regenerate itself. I want to see who I am when I raise my bar. I believe that if my body is radiantly healthy I will be able to inspire others to take it on as well.

I actually started the cleanse feeling pretty cocky. My thoughts were "I eat clean. I am at my goal weight. I don't eat meat. I hardly eat sugar. I drink 1 espresso in the morning. I don't drink alcohol!" This will be easy! Two hours into it I started to feel grumpy. Yesterday by 11am, just when I went to go teach class I felt myself getting annoyed and irritable.  I felt a headache coming on and I was surprised that already I was going through caffeine withdrawals.

I was teaching class and I was snappy, and grumpy. I was snappy and I wanted everyone to change so I would feel better.  I was saying things like, "if you don't want to do the class as it is designed you should take another class". Now I have said it before but with a totally different tone. I was actually blaming them for my headache and my discomfort. It seemed like it was everyones fault I was feeling this way.

I could hear myself trying to figure out how I was going to get off of the cleanse. No one will know if I just have a cup of coffee. I wasn't hungry just irritable.  I wanted to have things I don't even normally want to get out of this discomfort, a glass of wine, some junk food. Everything I don't normally want I really wanted.  Interestingly all the things that when life gets hard I would go to in order to ease the pain a little.  The very thing that is causing the headache is the very thing i want to have to ease the pain. Hello! ok, I will just hang here and see what happens.

Today is day 2 and I thought I would feel better but I don't. I still have a headache but I am determined to get through the 13 days. I did a light workout, I took a hot shower and a steam, drinking mint tea and lots of water with lemon. I want to get to the other side. If I want others to do it, I have to be able to do it myself.

I was preparing for Saturday's event with Lauren right before class yesterday and it was a perfect conversation. She was talking about how our bliss is on the other side of the fear, the doubt the discomfort and most people want the result but are not willing to do what it takes. The bigger the fear, the more you have to work for "it", the more proud and alive you feel afterwards. Ok I guess I am in for feeling AWESOME!

My work today is to just be a yes to it all. A yes to the result and a yes to the process to get there.
I will keep  you posted. If you are intrigued and want to join the community cleanse you can check out the details at satilife.com/events. Dr Lipman will be talking on May 14 at Equinox 19th street and the community cleanse for those who have bought their REMOVE detox package in advance will begin on May 16 so you will be cleansed for memorial day.

More later!
love,
Patricia

I am sorry. Please forgive me. I love you. Thank you. Reality check!

I teach about the impact our words have on ourselves and others. IntenSati is a workout that combines cardio exercise with spoken positive affirmations. We literally practice exercising our power to choose what we think, say and do. Sati means mindfulness and the foundation of the practice promotes living with awareness of the choices you make. This blog entry reminds me how much practice it really takes to stay conscious.

I was talking to a mom the other day and she was showing me a picture of her child and said, "he looks like an idiot in this picture. Then she went on to dote over him as I did when I showed pictures of my beautiful baby girl. When I left I was sad, sad that she obviously loves her child, obviously and yet a word like "idiot" flows out of her mouth in reference to her most beloved.

Before you gasp and ask yourself how anyone could possibly...check yourself.  There are so many things we think, say and do unconsciously. It is a habit we learned early on in life and it is so natural to us that we can't even see the harm.

I had another situation happen to when someone flipped me off. I had a moment of shock then found myself chalking it up to "oh it's just her".  I didn't take it personally but I did have a judgement about her. Even though I believe she did it playfully it stuck in my mind and although I say it didn't bother me, here I am writing about it. What do you think about it? How would it make you feel? What would it take for you to flip someone off? Some might laugh and think it is funny, others might gasp and think "I would never!!"

My first reaction was "how could you? I would never!!" Reality check. I do say things that I wouldn't want anyone to hear. I think things I wouldn't want anyone to know about. I say things I wish I wouldn't have said. I do things that hurt peoples feeling's.

Those two things felt harsh. It made me realize again the powerful impact our words and actions have on others, on our loved ones, on ourselves. It left me feeling sad. How often have I said things about or to the ones I love that hurt them?

How many things do we say out of old habits that actually don't represent who we really are? How often do we speak to ourselves in a deeply harming way? How would you feel if someone you really loved called you stupid, fat, ugly, dumb, loser, lazy or swore at you in language I won't even write here. Even the short list of words I listed here are enough to deeply hurt.  How many of these kinds of things do you say to yourself?

I went back and forth with myself about writing this post but I wanted to write it because I am hoping that it awakens you in a way that will help you get present to how deeply impacting words are. Yes, you may know it intellectually but can you stay aware and present to it enough to catch yourself?

 Look around you, what music do you listen to? Is there vulgar language in it and you listen and just shrug it off as just music. How do you speak to yourself? How do you speak to your loved ones? How do you speak about your loved ones? What movies do you watch? What language do you use when you are frustrated, caught in traffic, you don't get what you wanted when you wanted it, how you wanted it?

As I see my daughter look at the world and simply soak everything in like a sponge it makes me pay attention more than ever before. She is taking in as much information as she can. From wanting to taste the food we eat, to listening to the music we listen to, hearing and watching the TV we watch and most of all taking in how we treat each other. I feel I have become hypersensitive to all of it.  I know that I can try to influence her positively but trying is a waste of time. It is like trying to feed her healthy food if I am eating junk or smoking and hoping she doesn't become a smoker, or drinking and hoping she doesn't become a drinker or lying and telling her that lying is bad. She is only 7 months old and already I know that her little brain is soaking everything up and it will be the foundation of her entire life.

The blessing in all of this is that when I see someone else do something that is hurtful it reminds me to check myself.  I ask myself, what hurtful things am I doing unconsciously as well?  It all fuels my passion for living consciously, upgrading my personal habits, being honest, choosing what I eat, watch and listen to.

The most important thing I remind myself of is that when we are loving, appreciating, celebrating, giving and or listening we can't be harming ourselves or others. It is only when we are in a state of fear, worry, anger, resentment, hate or negativity that birth more negativity and harm. By devoting myself to being mindful, loving, compassionate, honest and authentic I will be doing the best I can, just like everyone else is doing the best they can. We all have the perfect parents, are the perfect parents, friends, lovers, ex lovers, sisters, brothers, wives, husbands, teachers and students.

When someone says something hurtful to you remember not to take it personally. It has nothing to do with you. When you feel hurt, angry, upset or sad check in with yourself to notice what you are saying  to yourself that is hurtful. And last but not least, thank those that come into our lives and challenge us, wake us up in someway. They are gifts.

Before you go to bed say these words, "I am sorry, please forgive me, I love you, thank you". Think of anyone you may have caused harm to including yourself.

Exercise your power to choose what you eat, say and do.
I am sorry, please forgive me, I love you, thank you.
Patricia

I am excited to be doing monthly events at Equinox called "Workin it Out" with Patricia Moreno. The next event is April 30th from 2-4. The topic is follow your bliss and take radical action. My co-leader for this event is Lauren Zander, creator of the Handel Method. She has taught me so much about the power of the truth. It is a rare opportunity for me to lead with her. I hope you will be there! Sign up at satilife.com. It is one hour of Sati and one hour inspiration. There will be a peacelovewold trunk show and a gift of tea donated by the tea set.

Do less and achieve more. Really?

First an update on my vegan lifestyle change. I love it. I am so happy I have made the switch.  I have been juicing every day.  If I can't get a green juice I have spicy lemonade, lemon, water, cayenne pepper and stevia or agave. I also found a great bar that I love for my midday snack or when I am running around.  A student of mine brought it to me because she loved it and I reached out to rawcrunchbar.com kathy and Ross the creators, to see if they would offer you a discount because I love them so much. So if you want to try them, you can go online and order and use Satilife discount code for a 10% discount. You can also find them at some whole foods stores.

I also heard Kris Carr, author of Crazy Sexy Diet speak and hearing her story is enough to really keep anyone motivated. If you haven't read her book or heard her speak, I highly recommend it. I hope to go and see her live at Urban Zen this Thursday night in NYC.

Update on my knee, I am thrilled to say I am actually pain free and I didn't even think it would be possible. Now this is seriously only the beginning but I want to remind you that if you have any physical pain in your body that you think cannot be healed to think again. Ask for guidance, open your mind to the possibility that you can find an answer and start looking around. I gave the name and info of Michael Moschelwww.painandinjuryresolution.com before but in case you missed it and you are in NYC definitely check him out.

This week my focus is is doing less. I can barely get myself to say it. I feel like if I am doing less than I am not doing enough. Instead of focusing on the physical doing of things my goal is to do everything I am doing with less effort.  When Michael was working on my body it was something he kept saying to me over and over, relaxed strength, do what you are doing with less effort.  So I have gone back into my yoga education and I have started doing more breath work and relaxation techniques.  It also reminded me that relaxed strength or doing whatever I am doing with less effort is the difference between living from fear and faith.  When we take an action from faith there is no trying, forcing or pushing but an allowing a letting.  So my focus for my self this week, this month, this lifetime actually is to do everything with less effort, with more faith and allowing myself to be instead of trying to get myself to be.

The theme carried into my bodysoulsati class with the affirmations:
All that I seek
Is already inside me
I now unleash
excellence from within in me
I take inspired, consistent and committed action
I now have faith I have all that I need
And so it is.

I allow my mental, physical and emotional body to be healed. Breath in. Breath out.
And so it is.

Take inspired action today and do less but achieve more!
Peace and love,
Patricia

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Are you preparing for the best or the worst?

 The topic of the month is “Your comfort zone of excellence”. Join me this month every Wednesday night on USTREAM or by phone for a 4 week  Thinner peace intensive. Step into your zone of excellence. Go to Satilife.com to register.  Over the 4 weeks you will have 4 group video / calls and a weekly assignment to work on.  The intention is to help you devote 30 days to choosing new habits that will become you new comfort zone. I hope you will join in!

Choosing faith over fear.

How much of your day do you spend worrying about what might go wrong or what might not work out in some way? If we spend time in worry and fear we are mentally preparing for the worst. In this state of mind we are not even available for the best outcome possible. We are literally preparing for the negative outcome.  When we choose faith then we are looking for and opening ourselves up to an answer and preparing for the best.  If you are someone who is often stressed, worrying or complaining you can consciously train yourself to shift your perspective of your situation and live a very different life.  If you have a good reason, a strong "why", you will find the strength from within to make the change.

Last year I had knee surgery and it has not helped. After two surgeries I found that there was not much relief. My knee was still getting swollen and my range of motion was limited.  I was beginning to feel like it was something I would just have to live with unless I wanted to get a knee replacement.  It was really starting to worry me I was totally giving up. I heard myself saying it was simply something I would have to live with. I caught myself feeling more irritated and sad. Finally I realized what I was doing and made a conscious decision to shift my perspective and open up to a new possibility.

I started thinking about my sister who had scleroderma and how often I reminded her that are no incurable illnesses just incurable people. She took on the mindset of "it is possible" and after her body had lost 75% mobility, she then regained 90% of it back. Unheard of for scleroderma patients. Her dr. recently told my sister that if she were to see her blood work now for the first time now she wouldn't even see the evidence of Scleroderma.  I went through my list of people I knew or knew of who had recovered from illnesses that were far worse than my knee pain and realized if I wanted to find an answer I would have to believe first that there is one instead of simply give up and live with the pain.

I started doing the vortex meditation every night for physical well-being. I changed my mind from it not being possible to asking for an answer. "I want to know how this can be healed".  I could feel my perspective shift, my mood lighten and body relax.

I know that if I want to see improved results than I have to improve my perspective, choose faith over fear and expect an answer.  Two things came my way, one was a new procedure that injects a lubricant into the knee that supposedly works on 90% of people. I started that treatment but realized that unless I found the cause then this procedure was not really going to heal my knee problem maybe just slow down the wear and tear.  

Three weeks ago my wife Kellen, who is a dentist, came home with a card from a patient who was raving about someone she was seeing who had helped her with many chronic injuries she had. Kellen asked for the card and told me about him when she got home.  I called and made an appointment.

Hi name is Michael Moschel. He is a structural therapist who has developed a system that is called individualized precise Structural Therapy that corrects poor posture and resolves muscular-skeletal dysfunction, bodily injury, acute and chronic pain. Success where all else has failed.  

I decided I would give it a try. After the second treatment I felt much better not only physically but even more importantly I felt my mind completely open up to the possibility that this is exactly what I need.  Even though it has only been two sessions and we may need many more, I feel so relieved. It is an amazing lesson when I think of how people we need come into our lives. Why would someone in a dentist chair tell her dentist about the body work she is getting? Then before my second session when I was telling Dyan, who works for me, about who I was going to see. She asked his name and said someone she trains has been seeing him for a while and thinks has had great results. It actually was good to know someone personally who was seeing him. It all felt so "coincidental". It somehow gave me a sense of peace that I was at the right place.

When make ourselves available for an answer by asking for guidance, surrendering the fear and the doubt and choosing faith.  

Every day I spend time before I go to sleep affirming "I give my physical and emotional body permission to be healed. I let go of any old patterns of thought that are obstacles to my perfect health and well-being.  I see my body bathed in divine light. My body now restores itself to a state of perfect health" Then I move into a few minutes of deep breathing and relaxation until I fall asleep. 

The reason I wanted to write this post is so that if you are experiencing any fear and find yourself losing hope that things will turn around, remember it cannot turn around until you shift your perspective of it.  If you give up hope then you will not have your mind available for an answer and even if an answer presents itself you most likely will not see it.  As soon shift your perspective of a situation your emotion shifts as well. When you are choosing faith over fear your will feel it immediately in your body and you will know you are on the track.

Ask yourself if you are choosing faith or fear. Ask for guidance. Expect an answer. Take inspired action.

Expect a positive result. Be thankful for the all that is going well and immerse yourself in gratitude and joy.

I hope this message helps you today. If you are in or near NYC and you want to make an appointment to see Michael you can reach him at Michaelsbodywork@live.com. His website is painandinjuryresolution.com. 

Ask yourself today, "Am I choosing fear or faith. Am I preparing for the best or the worst case?"

Breath in, breath out.

Love,

Patricia